Or, when mods go bad.
At first it seems like a funny joke. Ha ha. Maybe a little passive aggressive trolling. The cool kids picking on the drama club.
And then it gets mean. And it probably doesn't feel funny anymore, but you have to laugh louder to your cronies to cover up that sick feeling inside that tells you you're acting like an asshole.
If you're lucky that is. Since the alternative is that you don't feel anything, and that's even more sad and pathetic than being a bully striking out because now you can when you couldn't before, demeaning people to make you feel big because even with your newfound success you still feel small. At least a bully feels fear, and maybe anger or guilt. Something.
Trying to feel like someone.
And sad that as you try and try to cover your tracks, it becomes more and more obvious what is going on. And as you feel smaller and smaller, you act more and more recklessly.
And in the mean time, everyone else is seeing what you suspect. Your crony bragged about being part of the cool kids club, about picking on the poindexters, to try to prove to everyone else that cool kids are above everyone else, and that the kinda cool kids, well, they are cool because they have access to the really cool kids. And they don't really believe they are cool themselves. Otherwise they wouldn't have to brag, or threaten, or delete, or ban.
Too bad the kinda cool kids forget what this attitude shows... that they themselves are empty.
And we all know it.Posted by binky at March 9, 2007 01:21 AM | TrackBack | Posted to Music | Random Thoughts